Happy Halloween

This past summer, amidst all the changes that took place then, I promised I'd eventually create one of these things and post it publicly. My purpose in doing so was to open up to others in some small way- not just about my everyday frustrations and joys (which I broadcast constantly whether you like it or not), but about deeper things. Things including my fears, wants, desires, goals, amibitions ... basically all the stuff that I rarely if ever discuss with anyone.

I've been told that my perfectionism and self-doubt keep me from letting anyone else really know me as more than a casual friend. Of course there are a couple exceptions, but in general I find that to be pretty true. It actually made me wonder when the last time was that I sat down with someone, looked them in the eye, and told them exactly how I was feeling. The problem is not that I don't have people who care for me, I think- it's that I don't trust them or myself enough to open up. After all, telling others about your fears and wants means that you have to admit them to yourself in the process ... and who wants to do that?

Thus, I submit to you this blog.

In addition to my primary, seemingly Emo intent in writing this, I will also include the absolutely ridiculous events that seem to unfold regularly throughout the course of my day-to-day activities. If you don't understand what I mean, you will as I begin to post the details of my adventures.

Happy Halloween.