Musings

It's 7:13 AM ... studied for Systems for about 7 hours so far, with more studying to take place this morning leading into the test. I'm somewhat proud to say that I still have no idea what the heck is going to be on this exam. I'm also proud to say that I seem to be finding an unhealthy amount of satisfaction in the fact that everyone else is equally doomed.

Last night I was walking down to Packard to start studying (around 6:30 PM), and as I crossed the lawn, I couldn't help but look around and take pleasure in the atmosphere of a Sunday night. The campus was basically empty, the sky was that dark pinkish color it gets when it's cloudy but the lights from the city keep it aglow, and there was a cool but not uncomfortable wind blowing. The trees had all but lost the entirety of their leaves, and in the air there was that damp, rainy smell. Even the traffic seemed to have slowed down to almost nothing; the vast majority of Bethlehem was thus still.

It was a nice moment in time to absorb and enjoy ... and for the first time in a while, I wished someone had been there to experience it with me.

It's odd how over time, no matter who you are, there is always oscillation between happiness with what you have and longing for what you don't. One night you'll be hanging with your friends carefree, come home, and nothing will so much as cross your mind about having someone. The next night you'll be alone on an empty campus in a beautiful atmosphere, and suddenly you'll still be feeling content but have a certain sense of loneliness about you.

Interesting ... but not nearly so interesting as LaPlace Transforms (as I have no doubt you'd agree), so for now I think it's time to take a shower, find some caffeine, and study another few hours for this catastrophe. Maybe I can pull the same tricks I did on my AP exams- if only I knew how strongly Professor Perreira felt about dinosaurs fighting a dual ninja/pirate army. It's so hard to tell that kind of thing sometimes.