Stuff I Should Be Doing Right Now

1. Planning out the airline tickets I need to get to France with the Allentown Band. Additionally, I should be plotting out anything else I want to do in Europe with my week off. It's only three months away ... but what's intercontinental travel without a little excitement?

2. Writing my Martindale thesis. It's a pile of dog crap right now.

3. Sleeping.

4. Taking care of the plethora of useless paperwork I've amassed from NSCS and Gryphoning over the last few weeks. It's amazing what a distinct sense of apathy can do for your motivation when you know the work is pointless.

5. Finishing the regular, worthwhile homework I've amassed over the last few weeks. It's equally amazing how doing almost zero work has only cost me about half a point of GPA for this semester so far. Makes you wonder what I've been doing with my life up till now.

And what am I doing instead of all that? Sitting on the couch, waiting to go to another meeting that, ultimately, will not matter in the end.

As much as Spring Break should have rejuvenated me, I think for right now it's taken the last of the wind out of my sails. Things will be okay again soon, just ... for right now they're not. And it's not like there's even anything I could be doing except getting up and taking care of the usual shit. There is simply nothing left to be done but wait for time to pass.

So for now ... I hang with friends, I do what work that I must, and I wait.

"I find I'm so excited, I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it's the excitement only a free man can feel, a free man at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain.

I hope I can make it across the border.
I hope to see my friend, and shake his hand.
I hope the Pacific is as blue as it has been in my dreams.
I hope."
-Rita Hayworth and the Shawshank Redemption